damn

i don't know why, maybe it's just the fatigue...i all of a sudden started to feel crappy. i guess i'm nervous about the car not making it to friday, or me warping the engine, or me not getting this money. and god knows i'm not assertive enough to ask for that much, but now that it was brought up in conversation, i'm kind of betting everything on it. no way will i ask about it, but i'm so nervous. god i'm ineffective sometimes.