so, that doesn't seem like so long

and it isn't. it's just one period of time in a lifetime of periods of time. i only conceed to this time period because my own death lies on the horizon, harshy criticizing and judging every move. but it can't judge this move, because it's beyond reproach. so, today is a day where nothing will hurt me or get to me because, while all other things might just be as unstable as possible, i have stable ground. what allows this stability is this thing that doesn't exist in one of us but between us both. it is an entity that is not under the control of either of us; if it were our imperfections and misunderstandings might cause it to break or be injured. no. this is beyond our ability to hurt or control. we maintain it but do not manipulate. it chose us and now we are in it for the long run. this is not a note of resignation, but of thanks. i give thanks that we could both be at a time in our lives where we could find this gift as well as accept it. we have worked to have this and now we benefit from our pains, problems, mistakes and sufferings. so, yes, we celebrate that moment that we were able to accept this gift, but such chance is engaged upon the proposal of that celebration fo time.time moves my vision of the world; makes me forget wrongs and rights that have been done to me. time makes me forget who my enemies are and even moreso my friends that allowed my survival. time is fickle, and while it is upposed to be steadfast, its existance implies an inevitable end to everything. tonight i celebrate something outside of anything's ability to manipulate it (including time and you and me and death and health...). so, have a great day today knowing that something exists that doesn't bother to concieve of what day it actually is.